I broke up with my lover for the following reasons....


A) My sister found out
B) He is quite a bit older than I
C) He doesn't have a job
D) He won't go to college until he has a job
E) He said all he does and thinks about it me {Romantic to some... but that just makes me worry}
F) He just doesn't feel like the same person he was when we were first going out.


I told him that I would go out with him, possibly... when I am older meaning eighteen and he is also... And when things simmer down... I hurt him, completely and utterly hurt him. My heart is thrashing in my chest, burning to come out. I want to cry as hard as I can but I can't, for no one in our family knows about our forbidden love.

My longs feel like they are burning from holding everything in and I feel completely... I don't know.

I feel like cutting myself again but I promised him I wouldn't again, along with another person whom I feel as though I love.... My heart is being torn by a beast called hormones, and I don't know if I can get it back.